Moises Henriques Reveals Why He Once Thought Of Committing Suicide

Updated - 23 Apr 2020, 12:01 AM

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Mental health has been a big topic of discussion in cricket in the last few months and Australian cricketer Moises Henriques has also revealed his own battles. The allrounder recently opened up on his battle with depression which once pushed him to take his own life.

In the Ordineroli Speaking Podcast hosted by sports journalist Neroli Meadows, Moises Henriques revealed how he was diagnosed with clinical depression in 2017 and took time away from the game. The star allrounder was in such a condition that he even considered suicide as an option. Moises Henriques stated that there were moments in his life when he was struggling badly to find even a one or a two-hour sleep.

“If you looked up the depression symptoms on Google, I was ticking off every single one of them, and quite severely,” Moises Henriques told the Podcast.

“There were probably two to three months where I was in a really bad place, trying to function on one or two hours sleep,” he added.

Moises Henriques
Moises Henriques. Credit: BCCI

Moises Henriques revealed that the depression was taking a toll on his health. The depression impacted him severely, and he lost 10 kilos of his weight in just four weeks.

“I lost about ten kilos in maybe four weeks. I went from 98 kilos to 88 kilos in the space of four weeks. You don’t wish it on your worst enemy. I was an absolute mess,” said the Portugal-born cricketer.

The allrounder also disclosed how a first-class game which went the wrong way led him to contemplate suicide.

“I won the toss at Bankstown Oval in a Shield game against Tasmania, and we elected to bowl on what I thought was going to be a green seamer.

“At the end of the day, they were 2/290. Come day two, they get 450, declare, and we’re 5/90 going into the end of day two. I got out for like 20-odd,” he said.

Recalling those dark days, the Australian stated that while he was returning home, his head was full of negative thoughts.

“I remember driving down the M5 back home, doing 110 km/h, and I remember thinking to myself in the car, ‘If I just ran straight into this pole here, what would happen? What would be the consequence of what would happen?’

“I can’t do that. It’s not fair on my brothers, it’s not fair on [my partner], and it’s not fair on all these people who are there for me. I can’t leave my team with ten men for the next two days.

I ended up having to pull over because I was crying so heavily, and I was shaking. I had to pull over, just took five minutes. That wasn’t even at my worst, that was just a fleeting moment … Even at that stage, I didn’t think I had a terrible problem,” recalled Moises Henriques.

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